NACHRICHTEN VON MAMA
(2015-2019)
Published 2022
Book, 484 pages

Some people live in worlds of thoughts and experiences, that are difficult for others to understand. They have a reality, which most people also experience as such. But they also have a second reality.
In this second reality, existing orders are suspended and nothing is impossible.
The way they think, act and feel deviates greatly from the rest of society and these people are often perceived as crazy - including my mother.
She has been living with a schizophrenic psychosis since I was born.
An inner world overrides and an utopian space emerges in which a diverse, a multifaceted, pictorial imagination can unfold.
In my mother's case, this is expressed above all through her communication. She creates her own poetry in her messages, which gives a lyrical insight into a world of thoughts that is foreign a​nd yet familiar to me. A language of experience.
My relationship with my mother is characterized by love and care. However, it is also characterized by fears, worries and transgressions.
This is in the regularity with which my mother checks in with me. Almost every thought that pops into her head is communicated to me either by phone or via WhatsApp message.
My work is intended to highlight my mother's creative potential and to work through my personal relationship with her.
I try to bring order into her mental constructs by collecting the messages and relating them to each other. I want to show the connections between her thoughts and create references that can seem very familiar at many moments.
But there are deviations, and the viewer will perceive these too.
The work gives access to a diagnosis which is often a great obstacle for those affected and their relatives.
And yet it is also intended to illustrate the imaginative possibilities and the creative potential that is revealed in my mother's almost innocent, loving, childlike way.
For an altered perception is a phenomenon of and artists often seek a different way of looking at things. My mother already brings this different, alien view with her and can express it through communication.

Reading "NACHRICHTEN VON MAMA"

2023
STUTTGART, 1. STOCK
(I WAS INVITED AT "KAPITEL EINS BUCHCLUB" BY THE JOURNALIST LAURA MÜLLER-SIXER TO READ MY BOOK AND MAKE AN OPEN
DISCUSSION ABOUT SCHIZOPHRENIA AND MENTAL ILLNESS)
2023
STUTTGART, ABK STUTTGART
(READING OF MY BOOK AND OPEN DISCUSSION)
2023
STUTTGART, STUDIO AMORE
(READING OF MY BOOK AND OPEN DISCUSSION , MODERATED BY THE JOURNALIST JULE
STEINMETZ)
2025
STUTTGART, NECKTAR127 GALLERY
(READING OF MY BOOK AND OPEN DISCUSSION , MODERATED BY THE JOURNALIST JULE
STEINMETZ)

podcasts

I recorded a podcast about my work and my experiences for IMPULSRAUM in cooperation with FILMAKADEMIE BADEN-WÜRTTEMBERG, moderated by Amina Smajc ​ (available on all Streaming Plattforms)

I had the opportunity to talk at the „danke, gut.“ Podcast of Miriam Davoudvandi, when we together with Dr. Kerem Böge and other relatives and affected people tried to end t​​he stigma of psychosis at least a little bit. The podcast was released at Cosmo/ WDR and you can listen to it anywhere, where you can listen to podcasts ​​.

Grüße aus Madagaskar
Film
(13:44 minutes)
by Leonie Waschik & Anja Giele

Set Design + Dramaturgy by me


The film is about Julika, a woman living in her own reality.
She has paranoid schizophrenia.
Her thoughts and visions have a deep impact on Emir, a young adult who doesn’t know where to go with his future.